Be Loved

I feel blessed.

I look back at the Facebook feed and wonder how I got this far. My girls are growing so fast, and each day I have the chance to be my husband’s wife. I literally don’t need anything else. I know there are people on this planet striving for greatness. The recognition of being in front of people and having them applaud your hard work is great. But it doesn’t do anything for me. I truly only ever wanted to be a mom. (The wife thing was second but it sure has been amazing now)

Life didn’t go exactly the way that I wanted to go. I got married and had 3 girls with the wrong guy. I stayed with the wrong guy for 14 years. I fell in love while married, with one of my best friends, and then he found a real girl. He let me go the day before my 30th birthday and I struggled to find my way. (I still haven’t seen that friend in 20 years now BTW) Once I found my way, I picked my girls up and moved out on my own.

I lost my ability to do what I wanted, which was to be a stay at home mom. I longed to be with my kids every day. But that was taken from me. I fell in love again with a friend who stuck by me through all the crazy, but then had to let that go when it just was too overwhelming and not what was in God’s plan.

Mistakes and mistakes later (that sounds like a lot but really much less than you think) I found Joseph. My love. The person who helps support and feed my soul.

Why did I break all of this down for you? Because I don’t know where you are in your journey in this life. Maybe you lost the love of your life and you don’t know what to do?

Maybe you have lost your job, or maybe something that I can’t even imagine. But I know that you can recover. How do I know?

Through emotional abuse, drug induced rape, drama, trauma, and problems. I made it through. I know you can to.

Today’s message for you is, you are loved. No matter where you are. Broken and battered. You can recover. If you need permission to do so then here it is. Move past the hurt of yesterday. Move past the part of you that is lingering in the past and the problems of everyday. You are bigger than that. Created to be so much more than just Life’s pinata.

I believe in you

You have value

You are Worth it

I found love and life in the most unsuspecting place. Starbucks. Now nearly 4 years of marriage and almost 6 years since he first kissed me (February of 2018) I am so grateful for every failed moment. Every bad experience. It got me here. To this place of happy.

Don’t get me wrong, things are not perfect. I have bad days, or weeks, I find my self stuck in the occasional rut where I feel it all falling apart around me. But I remember that my God is bigger than my drama. That I can make it if I push past the feelings of this moment.

If you need a cheerleader, please reach out to me. No one has to make this journey alone.


Always Me,







My Hair isn’t messy

My bed is still made

My apartment is quiet

No sounds being made


Your echo isn’t hear

Your scent is too far

Not fair it is I say

Not to be where you are


Just far enough away not to feel your touch

Just far enough away to miss you so much


Close enough to know you miss me

Close enough to know you are mine

Close enough to know we have plenty of time


Patient is what I am

Patient is what I will be

Patient for you and for us

Patient for me


Sexy is your sweetness

Sexy is your Smile

Sexy is how you make me feel

Every day, all the while


My Beast you are

Your Kitty I will be

Every moment, Every second

All that is given to me


Happy we are

Happy we will stay

Just a moment apart

Never too too far away


Drawn together in ink

No erasure so change

My heart drawn to yours

In all of the most perfect ways


Time is just a question

Nobody knows

All my time you can have

Since with my heart it goes


Just six months so far

Give or take a few days

But enough for me to know

I will love you always


Give me the time

I can show you what I mean

Spoil you I must

It is what I do, It is what I need


My face fits in your palm

My hand in your hand

My mouth on your lips

So my body next to yours I will stand


Let me stay here

By your side till the dawn

To take on each day

By your side I feel strong


Peace is what you give me

Gentleness and love divine

With you till I can be no more

Ready to stand even against time




Awakened by a child and then struck by inspiration, the life of a writer in love. Love you all and hope to see that you enjoy my moment of glee.



My love always,

Lady X