Now it’s just me

So I have been thinking about my anonymity on here. My lack of name, my code names for everyone (except my Joe)

I’m done.

This is my blog. My life and I’m proud to be me and share it.

My name is Tiarra. I have three crazy girls and I’m divorced and I’m crazy. I have tattoos and body piercings. I talk to my kids like they are grown because I don’t want them to be babies. Im not stealing their childhood. I’m just teaching them life isn’t easy as an adult and that they should be kids.

My girls are my world right now. I know someday they will grow and leave me. So in an effort to make sure I’m not codependent on them I don’t call them when they are with their dad. I let them have that time. I’m okay to be alone in this apartment and just veg.

I’m in love. Crazy in love. I think about him all the time, and he was the first person on my blog not to be given a different name. I couldn’t. Because he’s my Joe. I don’t want to call him anything else.

Im naughty. I think it is caused by years of repression in the realm of attention and sex. I love it. When I’m slightly bruised and sore the next day And I know why, I smile. I don’t care if it’s weird.

The most important thing I have learned since I started this blog 2 years ago?

I finally know who I am. I’m geeky, and nerdy. I love comic books, and super heroes, and I play video games. I would play classic dungeon and dragons if I had it. I love my dark hair, my tattoos and my art.

I’m a poet, a painter, a writer and a photographer.

Most of all I’m loved. Loe by family and friends and most of all by God. He’s pulled me out of some stuff. He understands me.

So what was this post for? Well today, as I prepare for my boudior portrait session in September where I will get to replace my destroyed pictures from when I was married, I get to be me, I get to be daring and sexy and geeky and fun and I am doing it just for me. Not for anyone else.

I thought about the why, I have figured out the how and the date is set. And it all leads up to my tattoo that is on my arm so I can see it everyday.

I am just me, and I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

All my love,
Tiarra aka Lady X

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