Thinking Naughty

Here is what happens when me, a bikini and tequila get all mixed up. I write a naughty poem. It’s titled Fire, and I wrote it right after the creepy drowning one.

Your mouth on mine
Your hands they trace

My curves, my lines
My memore erased

Your tongue
Your taste
Sets me ablaze

Wild and on fire
Your love does engage

My heart
My body
Yours to do what you will

Conquer the fire
Consume me at will

And that concludes my camping writing….

Always,
Lady X

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The Deep

So while floating adrift in the water, and looking at my hands in the water, my morbid brain thought up a poem about drowning. So here it is for your creepy pleasure.

Splashing cold
Splashing fun

Till inky blackness steals the sun

The weight of all that is to be
Crashes down all over me

Till there is nothing but the cold
A quiet that breaks every mold

Nothing left
Nothing gained

Nothingness is what remained

Always yours,
Lady X

The Lake

I am wide awake. The night is quiet. The only sounds are those of the crickets and other night creatures that make up the sounds of nature going on around me as I look at hundreds of stars. I look around the lake, the water is black glass. Calm and placid. Beautiful in its design. The trees surround me, I feel it the oxygen, the life, the colors that surround me. Everything here is alive and it vibrates around me. I feel it in my skin. Feel the vibrations inside my skin. The night life is its own music. Its a beautiful complex set of sounds. Earthy, natural, brilliant. Amazing.

I felt this way last night. I looked at the endless sky, I thought to myself, “this night could only be more perfect if I saw a firefly.” When I was kid, in my hometown at the fourth of July, we sat on the top of the hill, and we got ready to watch the fireworks. And as dusk hit there was a firefly, then another. Until there were twenty or thirty of them. It was in my eyes an endless see of amazing beauty. Tiny flashing lights. Not made by man, but instead made by God. Such wonder in my 12 year old eyes. I had never seen a firefly before then. So to me it was one of the most amazing things I had ever seen in my life. So last night I told myself that after such a perfect day it would only be more perfect if I could see a firefly. And as I walked back to my tent I looked and I couldn’t believe my eyes. A firefly. Such wonder. I followed it with my eyes till it was out of sight. Just grateful in that moment to have a 12 year olds childhood wish granted.

Amazing.

Be amazed.

Love Always,
Lady X

5 o’clock in the morning

I just took a great nap. I feel pretty good. I am listening to that song in the above mentioned title. It’s the song I think of everytime I am awake at this time. And since I have spotify I can listen to it because I was just thinking I really wanted to hear it.

The only problem with this nap is I have a lot to do today. I want to try to get my hair done, then I need to grab a few groceries, though Carlos picked up some so he saved me a trip and the use of my credit card.

Continuing forward with my random post, had a great night at work. Lost power at the Bucks for an hour yesterday. It was very interesting. We sent one of our baristas home early but then wished we had just sent her on lunch. But it was good. We worked it, closed it down and then just chilled out outside letting the wind blow our words around while we just chit chatted about how things were when we were younger. Being 31 means I can use sentences like, “when I was a kid” and get away with it.

Sometimes you just need a few minutes of the past.

So as I figure out what I am going to actually do with this fantastic day, I bid you all adeui.

So here are the lyrics to that song. Enjoy your morning my bloggers. I hope you are getting some 5am action. I am lying in a bed filled with too many yippy dogs, a toddler and just me. maybe I’ll just stay up. I’m sure I can get way more done that way. We will see. Too much to do. Too much too do.

All my love always bloggers,
Lady X

[Lily Allen:]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you’re going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I’d just wait there (uh)
Until I heard you come up the stairs (uhh)
And I pretended I was sleeping (uhh)
And I was hoping…

[T-Pain:]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning, and I want ya
And you want me, don’t ya?
I can see it
Cause you’ve been waiting on me since
I said that I was hittin’ the club
Something coming up on me
And I know you be getting so horny
Cause you be sending me texts saying
Like boy just get your ass up in that car
And come get all of this love

(It’s 5 o’clock in the morning)
You ain’t got to remind me
She already said if I don’t come home on time
She might go crazy
And she’ll be waiting on me naked
With one of my chains on
She might come and find me (oh oh oh)
And then ask me kindly
Do I want her to go crazy?
We do this every night
And then we always wake up singing the same song

[Hook: Lily Allen]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning (yeah)
Conversation got boring (talk to me girl)
You said you’re going to bed soon (let’s go)
So I snuck off to your bedroom (come on)
And I thought I’d just wait there (wait on me)
Until I heard you come up the stairs (I won’t let you stay lonely)
And I pretended I was sleeping (alright)
And I was hoping you would creep in (goodnight)

[Hook 2: T-Pain]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you’re going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I’d just wait there
Until I heard you come up the stairs
And I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in

[T-Pain:]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning
And you calling
And these females got me stalling
I can hear your voice in my head like
“What is he doing? Oh, what is he doing?”
Cause I keep checking my cell phone
And these missed calls
You texting me like I’m a kill y’all
If you don’t get your ass up out of that club
And do you know what time it is?

(It’s 5 o’clock in the morning)
Oh, oh my bad, girl
And this Nuvo got me trippin’
And I know that you mad, girl
But you ain’t got to worry about nothing
Girl I got you, girl I got you
She might come and find me, and then ask me kindly
Do I want her to go crazy?
We do this every night and then
We always wake up singing the same song

[Hook: Lily Allen]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning (yeah)
Conversation got boring (talk to me girl)
You said you’re going to bed soon (let’s go)
So I snuck off to your bedroom (come on)
And I thought I’d just wait there (wait on me)
Until I heard you come up the stairs (I won’t let you stay lonely)
And I pretended I was sleeping (alright)
And I was hoping you would creep in (baby girl goodnight)

[Hook 2: T-Pain]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you’re going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I’d just wait there
Until I heard you come up the stairs
And I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in

(It’s 5 o’clock in the morning)

[Wiz Khalifa:]
You ain’t got nothing on
But the t-shirt that I left over your house
The last time I came and put it on ya
Too many thirsty girls up in this club for me to
Leave here with one of them
That’s why I call her
And you’ll be right at home waiting for me
Iphone plugged in the wall, just waiting for me
Club closed at 6, left around 4:30
Yeah so by the time I’m at your crib…
(It’s 5 o’clock in the morning)
And you yawning, but I’ve been drinking all night and I feel like performing
With you in the bedroom
Floor to the dresser
Don’t want nothing less cause I’m sure you’re the best
You’re the one, so I let you
That’s how you show me love
And when we finish you like “Damn, babe you woke me up”
I love the way you put it down like it’s for both of us
The sun ain’t the only thing that’s coming up

[Hook:]
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you’re going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I’d just wait there
Until I heard you come up the stairs
And I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in
It’s 5 o’clock in the morning

Another sleepless morning

I can really call it a sleepless night when I climbed into bed at nearly one am. Working till the bucks closes and then trying to sleep is sometimes hardly effective. Today I don’t work till 6pm so I don’t care that I find myself awake with the midget (my youngest) at 5am. I got a few well deserved zzzzz before she woke up. Now it’s chocolate milk and Phineas and Ferb. And me here pouring out the thoughts that consume this brain in the wee hours of the morning.

So I am laying here, all tucked up in bed, too lazy for Jammie’s so topless and string bikinis are the way to go. I’m in a house full of girls so modesty isn’t an issue for bedtime attire. My bestest cowriter came by my work tonight and hugged me, told me what great writing work that last poem I posted here was. It is some of my better work. Amazing what you can write while a passenger in the back seat just because you have your iPad with you. I got to see lots of my favorite customers. One guy whose name I don’t know, he gets a grande, one pump vanilla extra foam, nonfat caramel macchiato. He loves it whe I remember his drink. Just makes him giddy. My photographer friend who is going to do my pin up work and some nudes for me came in too. I’m a photographer also so he brought me some extra gear he had. It was super sweet and I can’t wait to use it camping this weekend.

My customers make the lame pay worth it. They truly make the job worth while.

I got a huge compliment from a coworker tonight. He is one of the shift supervisors at work and he said that I am one of the most grown up people he knows. I don’t let the crazy get to me. He tanks that’s cool. I appreciate him noticing. There are a few things that bug me. But I try not to legit get to me at work.

So now as I lay here I am thinking of my upcoming camping trip, and the fun that is going to ensue. I am so excited about it that I can hardly contain myself. Three days to relax, no big plans, just water and sunscreen and music. That is my vacation to myself weekend. Honestly, can you think of anything better. Just laying out in the sun, water all around, just baking. I’m gonna be a nice shade of bronze when I get home. Awesome.

So this post isn’t the usual, I can’t sleep, why me, I hate insomnia posts. I am tired, but I’m not minding this moment of peace to write a post that’s largely about nothing.

I’m happy in this moment, happy for my girls,happy for my friends and family, happy to be sweet on someone (that’s another post for another time) in this moment I am happy. Simple, unwanting of anything as inlay here in my bed.

I’m outside the box, looking in and see all that I am not hindered by anymore. I love it.

Spend some time outside the box today.

All my love always,
Lady X

My Wind

The wind blows me here and there
Like leaves falling, I know not where

It blows through my heart
My soul my mind

Hollow and empty is the space it finds

But wait it whispers softly to me
The wind, the breeze, my secrets it breaths

My past, my present, my future
Laid bare

My thoughts, my feelings
Far too much too share

My heart, my soul, my love I find
In clips, in phrases, in images in my mind

A future that could not before be seen
A place for my head to rest

A place for my heart to believe

On his chest my face will lay
At my breast our children will play

At night is where our love will shine
And then true love will truly be mine

Just my thoughts for today

All my love,
Lady X