Checking Me Out

I sure wish this post was in reference to the many times a day I get checked out by some random customer but no. This is actually about what I felt like was some strange woman sizing me up in the drive thru. I have only had a woman look at me that way when she thought that perhaps her man was in jeopardy of being stolen away by the amazing and wonderful charm that makes up this adorable little package that is me. But alas, that can’t be the case here so I have no idea why this woman would look at me that way, Maybe perhaps she has a complex and she just looks at all woman that way. I couldn’t even begin to tell you. I am sure that it will be a mystery forever. I can tell you this, unless she is like me and that dynamite comes in small packages I am pretty sure I could take her. But just in case I couldn’t I sure do miss my martial arts class. Sigh.

So now that the sizing up portion of my conversation is over I am sitting here at work, ten mintues into my lunch break and thinking about nothibg inparticular, though I won’t lie, I have had romance on the brain all week. Looking at wedding dresses doesn’t help. It sends my brain off in directions that honestly I prefer it not go. I don’t need those expectations in my head. I may never get married again and I need to make sure my brain knows that. I know my head does, it is rather cynical sometimes, but my heart is another story. It sees a knight in shining armor, and I am the damsel and he is here to save me from all of my distress. I know he is out there. I just wonder if he will be too far away when the time comes that I am ready to be rescued.

Oh dearest love, why must you be so far away, and a stranger, that I have no idea who is, or what looks like? How will I recognize you? I dream dreams and I see him, he has no face though so its kinda creepy. It does find me married. But again I wonder if sometimes it is just my overactive imagination.

The Lonely – Christina Perri

The Lonely lyrics

2 a.m., where do I begin?
Crying off my face again
The silent sounds of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed

I’m a ghost of a girl that I want to be most
I’m the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Too afraid to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
But the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me ’til I fall asleep

I’m a ghost of a girl that I want to be most
I’m the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there’s only me and the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

THis is the song I am listening to right now. I love this song, though yes the lonely applies to me, it is a peaceful lonely. I just really feel this song sometimes. I am usually dancing alone, while the room isn’t on fire that is a metaphor to me for the fire that burns inside me.

Now this song:

Distance – Christina Perri

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give up
Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don’t stand so close to me
I’m having trouble breathing
I’m afraid of what you’ll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?
How long til we call this love, love, love

This is my love song. And I can’t wait until God tells me its true.

Make sure to keep my distance, say I love you, when you’re not listening. Mmmmm. Love it.

Off to work I go. 3 minutes to spare and I just wanted to say, Love and be loved, it is amazing and it will make you happy if you try it.

All My Love Always,
Lady X

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To save what we have

So I’ll make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening

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