If you read this

I am sure you can see that my blog is gone. I moved it. I didn’t want you to read my thoughts. I felt like if you could it would be an intrusion since I know nothing that goes on in your life and I know its best that way. I don’t think I want to know anything of the torture that I am sure you are being caused by Crazy. It’s hard enough to know you are alone.

I meant to tell you this a hundred times but there was a song I always thought of with you and I never told you because I just didn’t want to harp more on the issues between us and Scary. But since we are past that now I feel like this needs to be here. It may be all that ever goes here.

Colbie Calliet – Before I let you go

Boy, I see you lookin’ over
You keep on looking back
At what you knew
When will you come closer?
Closer to the one
That’s good for you
Cause you’re still goin’ back to that life
And I refuse to stand on the side
By sparing her from heartache
Don’t you know you end up hurting me?
I see your head spinning right around
She makes you fall hard and hit the ground
When you ever gonna let her go?
I see the way that she breaks you so
All I’m asking is for you please
To take control and be set free
Make the space so we can grow
Save us before I let you go
Ou woah, ou woah
So you say this will get better
Better for you, her, or me?
Well, I don’t know what to tell ya
It’s not my fault that I don’t believe
Cause you’re still so stuck in that life
And I refuse to stay on this ride
Cause we’re goin’ round in circles
Aren’t you tired of never having peace?
I see your head spinning right around
She makes you fall hard and hit the ground
When you ever gonna let her go?
I see the way that she breaks you so
All I’m asking is for you please
To take control and be set free
Make the space so we can grow
Save us before I let you go
I have been waiting
For you to change this
But it has taken too long
So I can’t keep waiting
I’ve got to change this
It’s hard for me to have to be so strong
I see your head spinning right around
She makes you fall hard and hit the ground
When you ever gonna let her go?
I see the way that she breaks you so
All I’m asking is for you please
To take control and be set free
Make the space so we can grow
Save us before I let you go
I see your head spinning right around
She makes you fall hard and hit the ground
When you ever gonna let her go?
I see the way that she breaks you so
All I’m asking is for you please
To take control and be set free
Make the space so we can grow
Save us before I let you go
Oh baby I, baby I
(Ou woah)
Baby I, baby I
(Ou woah)
Don’t wanna let you go
I don’t wanna let you go
Save us before I let you go
Oh baby I, baby I
(Ou woah)
Baby I, baby I
(Ou woah)
Don’t wanna let you go
I don’t wanna let you go
Oh no, oh no
No, I don’t ever wanna let you go

I wish things were different. There are so many songs I can post here now. Songs I wish didn’t apply anymore. I had some of the best plans for us. More dreams. I feel like all my happiness is a fantasy. Even you turned out to be a fictional character. Not real. Not true. It seems that happens to me a lot. Maybe I want too much. Maybe if I want nothing then the right person for me who won’t have to worry about exes and drama will come along and rescue me the way I deserve to be. Maybe not. I guess I just have to wait for God’s good timing.
I do pray the most happiness and the best love to come your way. Don’t close your heart to the love you deserve. You know what love looks like now, now the right girl can come along and you can show her what you showed me.

Be happy. It’s all I want.
Always,
Lady X
Katie Perry – The one that got away
Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos
Used to steal your parents’ liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I’d be losing you
In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don’t have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It’s time to face the music
I’m no longer your muse
But in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don’t have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away
[Bridge:]
All this money can’t buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can’t replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Woooooow)
‘Cause now I pay the price
In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don’t have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don’t have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

Colbie Calliet – Fearless
If that’s the way you love
You’ve got to learn so much
If that’s the way you say goodbye
And this is how it ends
And I’m alright within
Never going to see me cry
Cause I’ve cried
Chorus:
So go on, go on and break my heart
I’ll be okay
There’s nothing you can do to me
That’s ever going to burn me
So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I’m fearless
Better believe I’m fearless, fearless
So oh woh oh woh oh…
If this is how it hurts
It couldn’t get much worse
If this is how it feels to fall
Then that’s the way it is
We live with what we miss
We learn to build another wall
Till it falls
Chorus:
So go on go on and break my heart
I’ll be okay
There’s nothing you can do to me
That’s ever going to burn me
So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I’m fearless
Better believe I’m fearless, fearless
So oh woh oh woh…
If it’s between love and losing
To never have known the feeling
And I’m still sad we’ve loved
And if I end up lonely
At least I will be there knowing
I believe in love
Go on, go on break my heart
I’ll be okay
I’m fearless
Better believe I’m fearless, fearless
Go on, go on and break my heart
I’ll be okay
There’s nothing you can do to me
That’s ever going to burn me
So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I’m fearless
Better believe I’m fearless
So oh woh oh…
So go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Better believe I’m fearless, fearless
Fearless…

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